Directed towards five people on my Facebook. I am writing this here considering if I were to write this on my Facebook I would lose about 20 friends and I really do not want that to happen.
But anyways I woke up pretty early this morning, took a shower, did my nails, got pretty for absolutely no reason other than the fact that me and my dad are going to lunch today. Well he's picking me up at 11:30 so I have time to spare and just went on Facebook only to read one of my "friends" statuses stating that she and four other of my friends are making a movie and how "they can't wait to film some more today!"
I am very mad. I have been mad at people before but this infuriates me. So I wrote a great letter to these five assholes which I have no plans on sending and it says this;
Dear friends( if I can even call you that anymore),
It has come to my attention that you all are filming a movie. I give you my full support on this project. However I do not support the fact that you all deliberately excluded me from this knowing good and well that I act the same as the rest of you. I guess I am not fully understanding why not one of you could have informed me of this. Is it because I'm not good enough? Because I don't look like a Barbie? Because I am not as tight with you as you are with each other? If it's any of the following those reasons are completely unsuitable. Why?
1. I am just as good as any of you. I may not have a SAG card or be a member of Actors Equity but last time I checked none of you do either. I took three acting classes this summer with professional stage and an unknown movie actor and I can tell you right now that I would have been happy to help with your movie, even if it was just behind the screen. However you all never gave me that option and now you will receive none of my help with this or with anything you wish to do in the future.
2. I can't help the fact that I do not look like Barbie. But I am confident with how I look and wouldn't change myself just to fit a stupid "image." If that is your reason for none of you informing me of this then I am going to be forced to never speak to any of you again because that reason is beyond idiotic and beyond ridiculous. You want to know who also doesn't look like a Barbie? Meryl Streep. Helen Mirren. Helena Bonham Carter. Bernadette Peters. Take that for what it's worth.
3. The last reason, if it's true, is horrible. I have talked to you about as much as you've talked to me, and we all seem to talk. Amazing! Sure, we all may not be "best bff's for life" but to exclude me for that reason is heartbreaking and hurts my feelings and kind of makes me unbelievably sad. Don't blame me for not trying to interact with you, because I have on Facebook as well as when I see any of you in or outside of college class or theatre auditions.
It truly does hurt my feelings to be excluded like this when you know good and well that I would have been game to either be on the screen as an extra or to work behind it. However I am kind of happy that you all are doing this without me. It kind of shows just what kind of people you are. If you have anything to say about any of this please message me back. I would like a good enough reason as to why I should not delete each and every one of you.
I am probably sounding immature about this but I am really hurt right now. These people basically just said "eff you" to me when they decided to exclude me from this movie. I realize that by not confronting the situation I am allowing it to stay the same but I don't think they would appreciate this message. Nor do I think it would be a hit for the director of my college if he were to somehow see this considering he's "tight" with two of these people. Ugh. Why do people exclude others? If anyone who is reading this has ever excluded someone else and knew they were doing it I hope you get punched in the mouth. Exclusion is not something people should think is okay because it's not.
This is why I don't get up early. Because when I get up early stupid things like this happen! I think I should just go back to sleep. It is almost 9:30 and 1:00 is usually the anti idiot jerk time of the day.